June 24th 2011 @ 1735 hours Muadzam Shah

semalam aku tersedar ...
aku dalam lamunan ...
mimpi yang tak kesudahan ... (mimpi macam mana nak sudah bini aku kejut bangun awal pagi tadi ... terkantoi aku)

Nurul Shazieraryana

she's staying in Ipoh ...
she's a widow ...
she's orphanage ...

she has born at August 30th 1982 ... a year behind my birthday ...

she's waiting for me ...
but she are noticed that I already married ...
and we both got a son ...

she are ready to be a "madu" with my wife ...
but me ???
how I'm going to manage them in my life ... I mean she and my wife ...
someones told me that I'm not ready to be in a polygamy world yet ...
am I ???

A Chat With Wojtek Gawryla

Me: I'm calling my "girls".

Wojtek: But you're already married.

Me: Yeah, but i still can have 4 wives in one time.

Wojtek: Uit! Are you a Muslim?

Me: Yes. A Muslim can have 4 wives in a same time.

Wojtek: In Poland that was in-illegal. You could have only one.

Me: Owh.

Wojtek: How about your wife? Does she knows about it?

Me: Yeps, she knows about it but I still can't have an approval from her.

Wojtek: Ahaks. You are still waiting for an approvals from her? That's interesting.

Me: Yeah. In Islam when you wanna get marry for a second times you must get an approval from the first. If she give you an approval you can get another wife.

Wojtek: So what are you going to do?

Me: My plan I wanna arrange a time that to get my girls and my wife meets for a discussion and explain to each other about their feels about me.

Wojtek: Its a good plan.

Me: The results is 50 50. There could be a denial or you could have an acceptable.

Wojtek: Ok. If you can have an acceptable, are you going to stay together?

Me: I'm think not. If they're staying together they could fight with each other. May be I will put they staying separated.

Wojtek: OK, what will you do if you're married for a second wife?

Me: I must be FAIR to them. Its the most important act that I'm supposed to do and I got to do so.

Wojtek: Owh. I'm willing you will get that approvals.

Me: Thanks. I hope so. Cause that girls wasn't to loose me for a seconds time. We was meets each other before I get married with my wife.

Wojtek: Why you wouldn't married her?

Me: I was get an accident in 2007 and I lost my mind for almost 3 weeks. And I'm loose her too.

Wojtek: Owh. That's ashamed.

Me: Now we're meet again and I didn't wanna loose her and she feels the same.

Wojtek: I hope you are happy always.

Me: Thanks.

huhuh

ape dah aku buat sekarang nih ?? aku pun tak tahu da.. aku ada sakitkan hati banyak pihak.. hendak aku mati tapi aku sanggup ke terima azab nanti ???